#Happiness

Goodbyes cause me anxiety and stress. There’s a part of me that doesn’t even want to say hello to my most cherished ones if I know it’s going to lead to a heart-bruising goodbye.

But feeling that way means that I am not living in the present – and living in the present is the only way to live, if happiness is your desire.

Still, I am human. I forget. And then I remember again.

Be present, be vulnerable they say, because vulnerability is not a weakness but it’s a measure of courage.  I guess. No, not I guess. It is true.

Who knows hey. Just settle down Bronwyn, says the inner voice. And it reminds me of what Matt Khan said….. “Whatever arises, Love that” Just love that. Even long coloured goodbyes. Yes, Love that.

🙏🏾 On this beautiful spring morning, one strong beating heart. I am part of this world.

No identity, no background narrative, no defining label.

Not a woman, not a mother, not a child, nor a sister. Not a partner. Not a friend. Not a teacher or a colleague. Not a student. Not a runner, surfer. Not a biker. Not a divorcée or anything else.

Nothing but essence. Just the awareness behind my emotions. Nothing more than the awareness behind my thoughts.

And that is enough.

I am enough.

What do an ostrich egg, a Casablanca DVD and a VannieKaap mug have in common?

….they’re genuinely the most extremely thoughtful gifts anyone has gotten me in a very long time. Life is Sweet. Life is Beautiful. That same person told me life doesn’t stop for you if you need a moment, it goes on. True Story – yes indeed. I do however think if you just relax and go with it, once you get out of white water or the fog, there’ll be an ostrich egg waiting for you on the other side. Now how can anyone not be excited about that!