Except I don’t really mean oops.  I won’t apologise.  It’s a few hours to deadline and I must submit something before tomorrow.  And I’ve only just started reading on Data Analysis, Validity, Ethics and Budget and Timeline.  In fact a few minutes ago I would not have been able to give you those subheadings because I didn’t know what I was supposed to write about.

The past week has been so busy.  I truthfully had no time to read up on them, so I won’t feel guilty.

I’m on the final contact session of my editing course too – and I believe we’re writing a test tomorrow.  But I’m also just not gonna study.  I guess it’s about priorities and then it’s also about what is practically possible.  The extra editing course was very expensive – R5000, but I’m shooting in the dark trying to study for that test anyway.  I’m not a language undergrad.

The CHEC course was less expensive, but the value and my interest level is more…..personal priority.  At the same time, there are certain things (information) that I just don’t have access to at this stage, so even finishing the CHEC proposal seems to be uncertain but I forge ahead anyway.

Travelling home today I reflected a bit about the goals I’ve inadvertently set.  It mirrors real life. My feeling is in real life we keep chasing that first high – that first time we experienced happiness for whatever reason.  However I’m starting to suspect you never ever really hit that high again – instead you just keep challenging yourself to greater feats. Because you’ve already accomplished something, so you set your goal posts higher without even thinking that what you now aiming for is even beyond what you first thought was impossible.  That’s what I did.  A few years ago I was ‘nothing more that a mother’ – that in itself is something to be so grateful for.  Then things happened and I felt the need to start studying again.  At the time, I thought it was impossible to be a mother (single mother mind you) and a student.  But I nailed it.  Then I took on a second job……and now I’m trying to balance being a single working mom, with a second job and being a student.  It’s crazy.  Seeing my words in black and white makes me realise it’s crazy.  In addition I’m running an odd half marathon here and there too.  I’m going to need to take stock sometime……just not now.  Because now I need to finish what I started.  Oh blow it, and bring it.  Life is beautiful.  I think I’ll have a spin while I work.

A tumultuous week is the best word that I can think of to describe this week so far.  Started at the new company on Monday, and what a remarkably different perspective of the corporate industry compared to my last experience!  It is still early days, but the “road signs” seem different at this company, the attitude is less ominous.  The people seem more real.  Perhaps just my imagination, or as I pointed out, just early days, but an example of a vast difference between the attitude at this new organisation and the one at my previous employer is on the first day, when on training, at lunch time the trainer and myself and fellow trainee left the room in which we were getting training.  Instinctively I asked where I could put my laptop for safe keeping.  Without thinking he replied, “Leave it here in the boardroom, it will be perfectly safe”.  A refreshing change.  At worst, I looking forward to enjoying the next four months, working in a non-threatening environment.

Students also wrote on Monday night, minor hitches but predominantly went off ok.  Stayed at campus till 22:30 and the marking will begin tonight. .  Another day half day of training followed yesterday, and then I rushed off to make a 2hr biking lesson.  I then also went to see a good old friend perform at the Artscape last night.  This morning started with proposal class again.  Proposal class went well this morning, I’m feeling more comfortable with the idea of attempting to analyse my own qualitative data.  We had a lesson in coding and talks on data validity and ethics.  I believe I know what to do, but in between all the other priorities I honestly dont know when I’m going to do it… bearing in mind I still have to finish my modified literature review/conceptual framework based on the renewed focal point of my research.

Then still, Bike licence test tomorrow

Team building and Bespoke meeting on Friday

SJMC big walk on Saturday and 

Satori trail run on Sunday……

Oh well, and on and on and on we go…